My Healing Journey
How I Healed from Chronic Pain
I would have considered myself to have a “normal” life in my early 20's. I worked a corporate job, with a well paid job, i had a good social life, played sport and exercised regularly. However, when I was 20 my life took a turn. What started out as some pain and tightness in my hips and shoulders, worsened to the point where I was in constant pain, had a limp and stopped exercising completely. Honestly, it was a really difficult stage in my life. I was in constant pain, I felt helpless and I just wanted to be healthy. Despite having numerous scans, seeing many doctors and specialists, they couldn’t find anything physically wrong with me to explain my pain. I tried so many different types of painkillers and anti-inflammatory drugs but nothing worked. I felt incredibly frustrated, “they must be missing something” I thought and I kept trying, which only led to more false hope and disappointment. My body felt broken, "why is this happening to me?" I constantly thought. I wanted to be reset to default settings and experience some lasting pain relief, but nothing was working. Finally I was diagnosed with “Ankylosing spondylitis". Whilst I was relieved to get a diagnosis, I was also scared and upset. I was told I wouldn't play sport again, my exercise would be limited and the pain only managed. However the treatment didn't work and the pain got worse. I lost faith in the doctors, the diagnosis didn't make sense to me in the first place and I wanted to understand what was causing the pain. Why did I have it in the first place? I didn’t believe in bad luck. Surely there were steps I could take to reduce the pain without all these drugs? I mean they weren’t helping anyway.
I started to be proactive, I took myself off all the drugs and started practicing yoga. Honestly, at first, I really disliked yoga, my body was so stiff and painful and felt like it could brake at any moment. However, I stuck with it. Things improved slightly but I still had a lot of pain. I began to see more holistic doctors who introduced me to the idea my pain could be emotional and stress related. Initially I completely rejected the idea and took it as an insult. I thought they were saying there was something wrong with me, like I was emotionally damaged and mentally unstable. I told them I deal with things well, that "I'm fine" and its just my body thats in pain. I wanted a quick fix and I put all these expectations on the doctors to fix my pain. I was waiting for someone to save me. <br> On some level I knew their was truth in what they said, yoga was helping and I noticed stress from work made it worse, so I decided to quit my job and take some time off. After some encouragement from friends I decided to go to India to do a yoga teacher training. I had a lot of fear and anxiety around going as my body still felt pretty fragile. I went because I thought I had nothing to lose. The India experience was so transformative and healing. During the month in India I began to experience the incredible healing effects of yoga, meditation and breath-work. I experienced moments of being completely pain free, which I didn’t think was possible. These glimpses of relief gave me the belief I could fully heal.
Once I returned from India I continued my healing journey by continuing my daily practices and exploring the root cause of my pain. I began to become aware of the different factors that were contributing to my pain. I began to see the link between my mind, emotions and my body. I couldn't deny it anymore. When I was stressed or emotionally triggered, my pain got worse, when I was calm and relaxed my pain eased. I realised how stress, suppressed emotions and certain events from my past were impacting my body years later. I realised that the pain being caused by my mind and emotions didn't make me damaged or messed up, it made me human. When I finally accepted these different factors were causing the pain my healing accelerated. I worked with a coach who taught me how to process my emotions, manage my stress and also helped me to release some childhood trauma. Through this process the pain began to reduce to the point where I am back playing sport and exercising with freedom.
Due to my personal healing experience I decided I wanted to help people who are going through similar challenges. I have experienced and overcome numerous mental, emotional and physical challenges that many people struggle with today. Psychosomatic diseases such as chronic pain, chronic fatigue, digestive issues and headaches are today's epidemic. Anxiety, worry, dissatisfaction and depression are rising. We are not taught how to process our emotions so instead we suppress them and push them away leading to physical and mental disease. I remember when trying to heal, I wanted someone to help me who'd been through it, understood it and actually healed from it. I really do get how tough chronic pain and psychosomatic diseases are. I get how helpless, hopeless and anxious it makes you feel. I get how lonely it can be and how it seems like no-one seems to understands how hard it is. Over the past 2 years I have helped people with anxiety, depression, psychosomatic diseases (chronic pain, chronic digestive issues, chronic fatigue, headaches etc) using my coaching blueprint. Based on everything I’ve studied, personally experienced and learnt from working with client's, I have designed a coaching programme to help you to heal from your symptoms and access lasting health, joy, peace and contentment. The blueprint is tailored to your specific objectives so you can accomplish what you would like from the coaching <br> Please book your FREE Discovery Call and we can begin your healing journey today.